Clarity

everything is falling into place. digital weakness is starting to fall short. separating the truth from her common deceit. it's been months now since i knew you, or knew what you thought you were at the time. i've cleaned up, sharpened my senses and held my love deep inside for long enough; robbing a deserving bird the opportunity to fly. but all i can say is i knew you before, you were beautiful back then; before you grew up, before you gave in. i'd like to say there are no harsh feelings, but that would be a lie.

i haven't been this happy or self-sufficient in my entire life. without substance abuse, without dependency, without anxiety or depression. balanced. the colours are vivid and pure; the nights free and clear.

you dreamed of sharing your heart, instead you shared your bed. and your heart beats empty and cold, with all the tears that you have shed. you dream of baring your soul, instead you bare more skin; and you wear dark glasses to keep anyone from looking in.

xxxxxxo

i'm sorry for the confusion. time to myself is all i needed. self-isolation to work my shit out. everything is beautiful now, everything is illuminated. and the taste of your kiss left me breathless and giddy like the first time. i don't know where your head is at, but i want nothing more than to make up the lost time.

lovemaker

your body was just a test for me
and if i run as fast as i can
the thought of your memory
will catch up with me

i'm always late with my words
we tried so hard
i should have told you
but i never really cared
you always mislead me
you always got the worst of me

Red at Night

was a blood red sky on the morning tide
was a cold wind blowing when I left that night
and the morning bells rang, alright, alright
shoulda stayed home with you that night
ain't nobody played the fool like i

things got bad and things got worse
half my blessing, half my curse
it's these blessings so hard to see sometimes
got a little clearer 'round dusk last night
ain't nobody got a blessing like mine

it's a red sky night and i'm doing alright
it's a red sky night and i'm doing just fine

start. design later.

this great evil - where does it come from?
how did it steal into the world?
what seed, what root did it grow from?
who is doing this?
who is killing us, robbing us of life and light, mocking us with the sight of what we might have known?
does our ruin benefit the earth, aid the grass to grow and the sun to shine?
is this darkness in you, too?
have you passed through this night?